Something’s Gotta Give...but, it hasn’t

Raw, Honest, Unfiltered...

Ever been in a place where you know that something has to give?

Something needs to change,
yet,
still stuck...

Not confused.
Not unaware.

Just stuck.

It’s like…I see it all.

The patterns, the stagnation, the “this ain’t it” signs blinking in red.
I can name every single thing that’s expired.
I know what needs to shift.

But I’m still here... circling.

I know it’s not laziness.
It’s also not a lack of clarity on what the problem is.

It’s this weird in-between where you’re too self-aware to lie to yourself, but not quite energized enough to change the story.

So you sit with it.
You spiral.
You overthink.
You might even clean your bathroom like you’re scrubbing the indecision off your walls.

Not sure why this popped in my head.

Pheeew!

Anyway, if I were being honest, this is where I’ve been.
Not “lost.” Just... overloaded.
Too many tabs open. If you know what I mean…

It’s wild how your mind can be full of knowing, but your body just won’t follow.
You can want better so badly you taste it, yet do nothing about it for weeks.
Months, even.

But maybe this phase is part of it.
Maybe the stillness before the shift isn’t failure.
Maybe it’s just... the wind-up.

That’s me right now.
Mid-wind-up. Mid-chaos. Mid-“omg something’s gotta give.”

And no, I don’t have the ending.
But I’m finally saying it out loud.
So…maybe that counts for something?

Still stuck, but at least the view’s honest,

Source - Giphy

xoxo
NOJ.

P.S. You ever been here? How did you get out of this phase?